The Next Chapter

Anyone have "North American Scum" by LCD Sound System?

Up for grabs, me covering Beyonce:

http://www.spazchicken.com/bill/Irreplacable.wma

SO it's been a bit, but things have been hectic lately. I've been busy making the t-shirt thing work. I had a date the other night. Mixed feelings about it, but overall, pretty cool. I did well enough to score a second date, but not well enough to get laid. I really had to work up the nerve to give her a goodnight kiss, but I did.

Had a nice 2 hour chat with a goth girl I met on Onion personals. So far she sounds great. Laughs at my jokes and flirts and talks sexy.

Anyway, that makes me feel better.

Also, on Saturday I had this date sort of with a lady from another personals board and she pulled the old bait & switch on me with the help of Glamour Shots. She showed up and was totally not my type. But I felt better later on, because she was willing & ready if you know what I mean, but I'm not desperate enough to lower my standards. So that made me feel good about myself. I just thought it was weird that for once in 6 months, not getting any action made me feel good.

We've done a brisk business this week, so it looks like we're finally getting where we want to be. Hopefully the con in June will work out, as well.

So I'm at my yearly review on Wednesday and I get a 3% raise!!! The kicker is I've sucked for the last 4 months at getting anything done and I'm going to quit in the fall...so it's just comical that they're giving me a raise now.

I had something else I was gonna comment on I had thought of on the busride home, but I'll be damned if I remember it now.

Oh Well, maybe later. I gotta go mow the lawn.

My mother-in-law called tonight. She didn't real have much to say except that she's "so sorry things worked out like this." Meh whatever. It's the example she set. She's been married 3 times.

The business has been doing so well over teh last week I'm no lomnger scared about going solo with that. I just need to save up some money first. At least my tax return is coming.

So 2 Thursdays ago, my wife fianlly quit clamming up to me and spilled the beans that she doesn't want to be married anymore. At this point I'm sad, but more sad in the way I'd be about a sad movie where I thought two people were supposed to wind up together and didn't. I've been at held at arms' length from her since last fall and am ready to move on now.

I have to figure out what to do about logistics: The house, daycare, etc. That stuff is all just an inconvenience. I think I want to sell the house and get a townhome. That will allow me to not worry over a yard and to downsize my costs, which will help when I go full-time with SpazChicken later this year. I just got an inheritance from my step-dad's death that will allow me to pay off the WRX, so I should be OK.

Now I just need to find a goth girl who wants a (semi-sweet) sugar daddy. I don't have a lot of money to play with, but I could be nice to somebody. I really feel like Lucy is missing out. I mean, she doesn't want to be married anymore, that's OK...but I could do better, and I think she pretty much hit the big money in the husband lottery, so she can only go downhill from me.

I just have so many things swirling around in my head. Like not since before college have I felt so scared yet optomistic about the future.